My anxiety hits me well.

What is my feeling when the academic schedule has been rescheduled?

The first thought across over my head was “Ah, I need to survive for another 6-8weeks”

I tried to relax but other thoughts running like a race over my head.

 “How I'm going to survive?”

“What if my friends or anyone else invite all of us to gather and have dinner”

“I miss them, but I want to be a loner. I don’t want attention from anyone”

“How to decline when someone asks me or invite me to meet and socialize”

“Ah, can I even have the courage to attend class?”

                Ah, the reason why I want to be a loner because I don’t want to hurt myself again. I don’t want to be attached to someone again and I don’t want to be a third wheeler as well. I feel like I don’t belong to them but I need them. My anxiety hits me well.

I tried to reassure myself that everything going to be okay. Everything will get there in the end. Everything will be fine. You need to appreciate those who appreciate you and those who care for you. Ignore those who giving you more anxiety. We’re going to be okay and happy.

It’s okay Mar, you just need to study. Because the study is what I good for. For all of them that have the same thoughts as me. I know it’s hard but it’s okay.

“Even if you have to start it again, we going to get there in the end”