Seorang Nemo

Hujan yang Sendu

biarkan hujan terus berlari-lari,
agar dia terus menjamah bumi,
biarkan hujan terus berasak-asak jatuh,
supaya dia terus membisikkan nyanyian sepi,

biarkan aku tadah satu persatu titisan hujan,
lalu aku simpan untuk kubasuh luka sengsara di kejauhan,
biarkan aku memanggil hujan selalu selalu,
walau dia sepertinya tidak mendengar.

biarkan aku terus menunggu hujan disini,
kalau dia terus mampu menguyupkan deritaku.

Ciklolita 8/4/2020 4.08pm Johor Bahru

Hi, it’s been 21 days since MCO and already 28 days for semester breaks. I hope all of you stay safe, keep social distancing and stay at home #KitaJagaKita. I hope there is a light for our world and hope we will be on cloud nine when the pandemic coronavirus vanished.

Since I’m a student, FINAL YEAR student, of course, I want to finish my studies without any issues, difficulties, and complications. Owing to that, I need to stay active and on track to finish plenty of works. The sooner you knuckle under and start work, the better.

In that case, we must have checklists to monitor your daily tasks. By writing your tasks that need to be done on your schedule, you will have a sense of accomplishments and this is important so that it can boost our emotions and make us feel stressed and unproductive. We must always go the extra mile.

In this case, the things that we need are:

1. Notebook (Cute Notebook, Formal Notebook)

I prefer a convenient notebook and cheap! :P

2. Stationeries

We need various colour of the pen (blue and black pen also can), ruler and etc

3. Prepare a comfortable and peaceful place to do works.

Any place should be okay, but for me, I prefer a quiet place and my own room! You need to be creative! Decorate your workplace with something that could increase your spirit.

4. Make the checklists

Make sure the tasks in good for your knowledge, body and increase skills. It's okay if you not finish the work, but as long as you do it! “Slow progress is better than no progress”

5. Start!

Finally, put pen to paper and start to do the tasks!

I already do it, and Alhamdulillah works for me! So I hope you all get benefits from my sharing! Trust me, your future self will thank you for what you’re doing at this moment.

“A little progress each day adds up to big results”

What is my feeling when the academic schedule has been rescheduled?

The first thought across over my head was “Ah, I need to survive for another 6-8weeks”

I tried to relax but other thoughts running like a race over my head.

“How I'm going to survive?”

“What if my friends or anyone else invite all of us to gather and have dinner”

“I miss them, but I want to be a loner. I don’t want attention from anyone”

“How to decline when someone asks me or invite me to meet and socialize”

“Ah, can I even have the courage to attend class?”

Ah, the reason why I want to be a loner because I don’t want to hurt myself again. I don’t want to be attached to someone again and I don’t want to be a third wheeler as well. I feel like I don’t belong to them but I need them. My anxiety hits me well.

I tried to reassure myself that everything going to be okay. Everything will get there in the end. Everything will be fine. You need to appreciate those who appreciate you and those who care for you. Ignore those who giving you more anxiety. We’re going to be okay and happy.

It’s okay Mar, you just need to study. Because the study is what I good for. For all of them that have the same thoughts as me. I know it’s hard but it’s okay.

“Even if you have to start it again, we going to get there in the end”

Kopi dihirup begitu kelat,

Pahitnya rasa menyekat dikerongkong,

Rasanya tidak sama seperti sepurnama yang lalu,

Biarlah beribu kali ku bancuh,

Rasanya kelat berjuta sepi,

Terasanya pahit beribu mimpi,

Tetaplah aku terus membancuh,

Asal saja aku masih terus mampu menghirup,

Tawarnya secawan kopi

Ciklolita, 8.59 pm ( 6/4/2020), Johor Bahru

Hello everyone and Assalamualaikum

Hey, for your information im now 22 years old on 1 January 20119. Feeling old hahaha. Hopefully im become more mature and better in sha Allah.

Since it is 2019! All people are talking about azam list. So am I! I have already listed my 2019 azam. But im gonna share only one with you guys ha ha ha.

So my first and foremost azam is to read more english books!
Yes, it is a great start to improve myself. I looking forward of myself to become girl who are smart, pretty and also good in softskill. So for me, able to speak and write english is a must. Nowadays, everything and everyone are looking this criteria 😚

Basically it is my mission this year. Have a confidence and have more knowledge in english before i pursue my journey as fyp bachelor student. Uhuhhhh im graduate soon!

Since early january, i became motivated to learn since i watched youtube channel ‘Aiman Azlan’. He is a motivator, a writer and my idol he he he. No worries im not going to adore him since he already married.

Currently im searching and searching some books to read. Books that can practice my brain to become more positive and mature. So i already found some books to be my 2019 reading list! So basically, i bought my soon to-be books from carousell but.... not yet arrived ha ha ha ha

But! Do not worry, i will share with you in my next post. See you when i see you!

Regards,
Ciklolita

10.55am
8 Jan 2018
Bilik baru, JB

Rajukku berpanjangan kali ini.

Entah kenapa.

Mungkin tidak berpuas hati dengan diri sendiri,

Mungkin tidak bersedia menghadapi lopak ini,

Mungkin aku terlalu berharap

Ah!

Acap kali aku pesan pada otak aku yang degil ini,

Jangan berharap

Jangan berharap!

Tapi apakan daya,

Aku pasti hati aku akan ditusuk pisau beribu kali,

Kerana aku akan terus berharap.

Bodoh.

A2-36

11.20pm

Novmber 13, 2018

Hai. Sorry lama tak lama tak balik dunia sebenar aku. Banyak sudah aku coretkan puisi-puisi dari bakat tak seberapa aku ni. Tapi, kemudian nanti aku publish. Publish buku terus lah, siapa mahu beli?

Baiklah, aku nak cerita tentang satu perubahan besar bagi aku dalam hidup ini. Ya, bagi aku sangat besar mungkin tidak engkau.

Aku dah buang app twitter dalam telefon bimbit aku!

Ya, hebat Nemo. Sebenarnya, aku boleh dikatakan pemain tegar twitter tapi disebabkan akum ahu ubah diri aku supaya tidak menjadi negative ( Ya, aku memang seorang yang negative)… maksud aku, aku tidak mahu sikap pemikiran negative aku menguasai diri sehingga ‘overthinking’ dan cepat terasa, so aku buang, ‘uninstall’ twitter itu.

Ya, aku tahu itu sukar bagi orang yang dah biasa menggunakan twitter sebagai tempat meluahkan perasaan and mencari kebahagian tapi aku nasihatkan baik kau buang kalau kau tahu twitter ini memakan diri. Sebenarnya, aku jenis tak ‘follow’ kawan sendiri ( contoh: rakan sekelas) kerana kita tak tahu mungkin kita ada sakitkan hati mereka, dan mereka jenis bagitahu dalam social media tu, dan kita terasa, benda ini akan memburukkan keadaan yang boleh dikatakan masalah yang kecik, menjadi masalah yang sungguh besar. Kemudian, mereka mungkin bagitahu sesuatu tentang orang lain, tapi kita yang terasa. Parah. Dan itu aku dahulu.

Aku buang sebab aku ada terasa dengan salah seorang classmate aku dan aku rasa stress, tak boleh tidur, jadi aku membuat keputusan untuk ‘uninstall”.

Jadi, ada dua acara sebenarnya untuk kau hilang sifat negatif yang sering berlaku apabila social media itu masih kekal di telefon anda!

1. 1. ‘Remove’ kawan-kawan kau dari twitter

2. 2. DELETE TWITTER! Senang.

Sejak kebelakangan ini, ada lagi berlaku perang di dalam twitter yang meyebabkan tersingguh perasaan. Disitu aku bersyukur, aku tidak terlibat lagi. Rasa tenang menyelubungi diri.

Sosial media berguna, kadang-kadang dia menjadi fitnah, berdosa. Ada seseorang pernah berkata, jangan tulis sesuatu yang boleh menaikkan marah orang walaupun kita tak tuju kepada sesiapa kerana kita tak tahu manusia sikapnya macam mana.

Semoga Allah merahmati semuanya!

Maaf andai pendapat ini tidak sesuai untuk diri sesiapa.

Lots of love, Nemo

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